The only way you can create change in your experience is to let go of the known result, experience and expectation. To move through the discomfort of not knowing into the trusting of a new outcome takes discipline. If you are tethered by the familiar and live based on what you carry from the past most of your realities will stay the same. Changing your reality will consistently bring confrontation within you to let go of control. The willingness to face the unknown and be uncomfortable generally determines the amount of change we are able to create. The developmental test within the individual is how are you going to experience change? Blood, sweat and tears? Or are you willing to anchor deep into the soil of Mother Earth and remain in a place of self-love during the changes in your life, facing the most unknown conditions and future? Are you willing to play, let go of control and make a new day? Are you willing to shock yourself with your choices to love and exchange of this love - and are you willing to embrace discomfort?

If you are willing to let go of control, to play and have fun through the unknown, then the magic of the Universe is yours. It is that simple. The power of creation flows as we let go and hold the innocence of love through our experience. It is necessary to let go of thoughts, things, as well as people when we are working with the Universal properties of love. The tests around boundary, agreement and relationship will be tested, until it is not. You have to be willing to lose it, to really have it.

We are forging ahead into a new time here on planet earth. People are being forced to change more than they are comfortable and ironically most are seeking comfort as opposed to change. Be willing to be uncomfortable, face change with anticipation, and love it for all it creates in you. “Let go and let it flow!” Be willing for miracles to surprise you.
Love, David

To master the journey with your light and darkness - consciousness and unconsciousness - life and death - love and no love - starlight and space…we have to move into the oneness where love of self becomes our tuning fork. Where self-love brings balance and understanding of our inter-connectedness to all things. There is no disregarding something or someone because they repulse us, there is no blocking out someone because their energy is bad or they are extreme, aggressive, addicted, egotistical or stubborn. Rather we empower our experience to be perpetual love and starlight by remaining in a peacefully co-existing state of self-love in the face of any darkness. In this choice we become the light for others to see.

So, how do I maintain this homeostasis of love when others are threatened by my light? I keep loving anyway. How do I stay balanced when I feel psychic daggers piercing my side? I keep loving anyway. “Psychic daggers” sounds kind of dramatic and I have felt this before but do they lessen my choice to love? Pain is an interesting teacher, a struggle to maintain one’s life force is an interesting teacher…how do you navigate all the realms of awareness and maintain your health and well-being?

My exploration into this always brings me back to self-love. It is my anchor point for conscious choice and experience. If I am loving to myself in the face of all darkness there is no evil. If I am loving to myself and freely exchange this love to all things in the Universe I am liberated beyond this earth plane reality. I am free to roam the cosmos remembering my travels on the solar winds before solidifying into this physical experience of human reality. The more love I can multiply into this flesh and blood existence the more I can remember the spiral of love that created this Universe long ago. I can merge peacefully with this wisdom knowing that “I too will be free one day” to travel again as starlight through the Universe carrying a message of love for all of creation.

The philosophical conclusion is: I rise above all tests of human reality or karma by remaining a constant beam of eternal light flowing through my heart. No matter how powerful any psychic energy - I am the controller of my destiny to always choose self-love as my reality. There is no drama, gossip, attack or distraction strong enough to warrant me leaving self-love. Nothing is truly that interesting. I am starlight. I have remembered coming into my mother’s belly as a burning star of light, nothing human can compare to that memory. No psychic energy can distort what I felt when I was shown how I traveled here. That ball of light is still present in my heart and I will continue to teach the importance of the awareness of this light as self-love until I leave this body…until then, I am committed to having as much fun as possible and to share the light. Onward! LOVE, David

But let me go back to the heading of this post, “Self=love as a meditation” I am talking about consciousness not intellect, not…”I’m going to consume this so I can move on to the next thing in my busy life.” Self-love is a conscious choice. It is about knowing yourself so well that you feel love flowing through your heart and being - constantly. It is a choice to be experiencing life through the heart and the discipline to be able to be balanced there - no matter the test from emotional, mental or psychic pulls of others. No matter the test from emotional, mental or psychic pulls from unseen forces, or from your unconscious.

In the development of yourself you have to be willing to examine all the ways you abandon ship around self-love. When you get this the negative aspects of being human will no longer control and dominate you. In other words you will not be so extreme, aggressive, addicted, egotistic or stubborn. Nothing will threaten your survival because you will be connected to the Universal flow of energy, which is endless and bountiful. In this energetic flow you will be connected to an understanding of self-love that is endless and bountiful. It will liberate your mind and provide contentment.

Prerequisite: You have to be able to feel the flow of energy from the heart. Self-love.

If you cannot do this you will continue to feel stuck and be driven by the ego. This does not mean you are bad, it just means you are typical, average, right along with most of the others. I’m not saying I have it mastered, however I will claim to feel the energy of my heart most of the time. When I do not I am one choice away from that feeling. My meditation of life is self=love and being in that place of contentment and the resulting connection with all things. It works and it creates an exceptionally magical, intuitive and creative experience of life. I encourage you to dig deeper, examine yourself and exchange this self-love with everything. Let’s Go! Love, David

For the sake of our history I excavated a little deeper. I asked her how she was doing with her drinking? I was met with dead silence. I told her the alcohol was lying to her to create these kind of insecurities, issues and reasons not to create and share her stories. She said she would like to quit drinking. I asked, “How easy would it be for you to go to AA?” She started to hate me and became very child-like. She said, “I am not an alcoholic!” I said, “I know, then it will be easy for you to go to AA.” She spit venom, “To admit I am an alcoholic!” I said, “We judge what we are, since you are not an alcoholic it will be easy, right?” She said, “I am not going to AA.”

I re-framed the conversation by saying, “Hey, we are friends. If we had not known each other for so long I would not be going here. It takes too much energy. I love you and I know you are a great artist. To write your story and heal your life you are going to have to give up your addiction to alcohol, otherwise you and alcohol will conspire to shut you down. Face it, you are an alcoholic, but I haven’t given up on you. Get sober and get started writing. It will save your life. I will help you.” She heard me and I could feel her humor coming back. She said, “What can we do about my credit card debt?”

I’m sure those that know me could hear my reply, “Patience my friend, Rome wasn’t burnt in a day.”

You ask me in your book to let you know how I am doing, so I thought I would. I have progressed through the first part of the book, looking at the ways I am blocking love in my life, which has been enlightening.  As a recovered addict/alcoholic, much of the work runs parallel to the recovery work I have done in the 4th and 10th steps — work I have been quite diligent about.  Your book has shown me that my experience with these steps and sponsors and others in the AA program has been good, but not whole — there is some confusion in at least in how I have experienced it, around the notion of self-love: often it seems ANYTHING to do with self is shunned and shunted in the ‘character defect’ category, ready to be jettisoned.  The message of authentic self-love is there in the big book, but subtle and easily missed it seems.

Your book has shown me something new, and thrown into great relief that all of my daily issues are rooted in my lack of self-love.  And the exercises and meditations have helped tremendously.  Something extraordinary happens every time I do the meditation — usually during my daughter’s first nap; I feel a tremendous sense of well-being, something I have felt in other healing work (hypnotherapy, body-energy healing), but not as consistently.

Thank you for this gift!